A Sermon for Covenant
“Cook Your Own Stew”
Covenant Baptist Church, San Antonio
July 13, 2014
Kyndall Rae Rothaus
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A psychologist once explained to me that a person with a narcissistic personality disorder is like a bucket with holes. For some reason—life experiences, upbringing, or whatnot—they never learned to plug the holes in their bucket. They are desperately needy for you to fill their bucket with love and attention, then more love and attention, but no matter how much you give—even if you pour your whole self out—it will all drain away and they will be left unsatisfied, maybe even angry at you for failing to fill them.
I’m sorta curious as to whether we all have a touch of narcissism, that is, a hole or two we still haven’t learned to plug. Maybe it’s just me, and you know how to stay perfectly filled, but my heart feels perpetually leaky. No matter how many hugs I get, I still need another one. No matter how many tough-girl boards I nail over cracks, no matter how many clever patches I plaster over pinholes, affection drains out and I want/need more. Read more →